~Such a Beautiful Disaster of a Life~

Artist in training ; star in waiting

i am really bad with describing things, especially describing things about myself. I am ashley kathryn. I am 20 years old. I am a proud sister of Kappa Delta Phi National Affiliated Sorority.

I love glitter, tattoos, starbucks, red hair, being barefoot, tall buildings, 80's movies, fast cars, F. Scott Fitzgerald, sunsets, whiskey, Tiffany's jewelry, mermaids, music, Pretty Little Liars, books, hot cups of tea, Harry Potter, campfires, flipflops, cursive, sand, plays, wolves, seashells, Glee, laughing, Ed Sheeran, cute boys, Broadway, the Hunger Games, christmas lights, Ke$ha, New York, American Horror Story, puppies, traveling, disney movies, Evan Peters, the ocean, poetry, and rain.

I am in love with people I have never met and homesick for places I have never been. I wander more than I should and I don't think I will ever really find a home and I am okay with that.

My mind is a wonderful and horrible place to be, filled with song lyrics, demons and happy memories.

I fall in love easily, always with the wrong person and get hurt fast.

I accept every walk of life, no matter what they are or have been through. You and I are stronger than our mistakes.

I hate to sleep, but I love to dream.

I will write about the following, leave one in my ask box.

Dear person I hate,
Dear person I like,
Dear ex boyfriend,
Dear ex girlfriend,
Dear ex bestfriend,
Dear bestfriend,
Dear *anyone*,
Dear Santa,
Dear mom,
Dear dad,
Dear future me,
Dear past me,
Dear person I’m jealous of,
Dear person I had a crush on,
Dear girlfriend,
Dear boyfriend,
Dear [insert URL here],

(Source: wishtoconfess, via darlingyourenot-alone)

So today was the first day since early May that I saw any of my friends. See, I don’t have friends back home - just memories - all of my friends are at school, 2 states away and I have been busy with multiple jobs; so busy that I haven’t been able to see friends at all for a few months.

Today, I had to go to my Student Senate meeting, being a stunt senator and all. At first, I was really reluctant, I don’t know why but I was. I texted Biggie and told her that I was coming up, and she said that we would hang out after. That made me happier to be going up - because after all I did see this as a huge inconvenience for me. I had to pay $25 for my train ticket up, spend 3 hours on a train (and same on the way back), and then get picked up by one of my future roomies (my BigBig bro) who I am not that close to. But as soon as I got in the car, something was different. I was able to hold a conversation and realized that this is exactly what I needed. I needed to see my Kappa family, even if it was just three of them. I needed to be out of my city.

After a 2.5 hour senate meeting, I went home with Biggie, Jud (other roomie/Biggies bf) and Jud’s parents. We had a good afternoon full of a lot of a laughs, and me being with one of my best friends.

But I realized something - I almost had to give all of this up. Because I didn’t care enough about school, I almost had to give my home up.

See, my university has become my home because I no longer feel at home back where my parents are. It’s nothing against my family, it’s just I have no friends left there - like I said, just memories that haunt me. All of my friends, all of my happiness, my future lives in my university.

Toady was a great day, and I thought I would share, because I learned a lot in just 7 short hours, and 2 long train rides.

"I am a feminist. I’ve been female for a long time now. I’d be stupid not to be on my own side."
Maya Angelou (via robert-winchester-novak)

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